Dominic has been talking about going to the circus to see the tigers for weeks. He was so excited Saturday morning that he found last years (very stretched out) clown nose and we played with it before we went.
As usual, we wandered around the animals before we went to get in line. This is from us watching the camels. Ringling Brothers has stopped touring their elephants, but they still brought camels, horses, tigers, and poodles along. Dominic was sad there were no elephants.
Silliness before we got in line.
Silliness IN line.
Just clowning around. We got a picture with the same female clown last year. Dominic quite likes her hair bow.
He LOVED having popcorn. ADORED it.
OF all the acts, my favorites are the danger ones - the dude who does the rings of doom (i have no idea their real name), the tight rope walkers and the trapeze. Dominic seemed to like the animal acts and the lady who got shot out of a cannon.
Over his life, Haircuts have ranged from horrible experiences where we had to hold him down to make sure he (and the stylist) didn't get cut to refusing the electric clippers because the vibration was awful, to screams, to insensitive jerks (thats the PG version) who insulted us. They've been getting better and better. I told ya'll the first month we did the IonCleanse by AMD that he was finally able to sit for a haircut (no electric clippers tho), so we thought that was HUGE.
In March, I told you guys he finally had a whole haircut with clippers.
Today, He had a whole haircut with clippers where he didn't need Daddy to hold him still. He sat compliantly and calmly The Entire Time she used the clippers.
I am ECSTATIC!!! OVER THE MOON!!! This is amazing to me.
We have achieved Routine, people!!! Camp is now routine. When I picked Dominic up from camp yesterday, another little boy came running over to give him "knuckles" before he left and the counselors told me he had had a Very happy Day.
This afternoon will be our 4th annual trip to the Circus, so look for pictures and blog tomorrow!!!!
No, not for Dominic. We see a family practitioner for Dominic. She's very reasonable, NEVER has pushed me once about vaccines, and I adore her. Pediatricians ... well, they're pretty much owned by the AAP, and they have monetary incentives tied to how many vaccines they give a baby by the time they are 2. Its nauseating.
We have somewhat adopted a younger couple (early 20's), who have a baby. They did some initial vaccines, but were bullied and stopped. She asked me to with her today to a new doctor (their second visit) because she was concerned about being bullied about vaccines. At her first visit, this doctor apparently presented her with a book from the CDC about vaccines. (yes, i will do my best to get my hands on it).
First words out of Mom's mouth when I picked her up and asked were, i don't want him to get shots today. I said "Then he won't".
Appointment went like this.
MA brings us back to the room, we strip the baby, they weigh and measure. Then she comes back in and starts talking about vaccines this time. To which I said "She will be exercising her right to a philosophical exemption today". MA Said "you're kidding, right". I gave her what is known as the Joy Death Stare. I was not kidding.
The doctor took longer than usual to come in. I suspect the MA was briefing her on the crazy woman wearing a Thinking Moms Revolution shirt in the room with the young mom.
The doc came in, really wanted to know who I was. I'm the ride, and the mentor. She proceeded to talk food, weight, measurements, listened to the baby, and then brought up shots. As she was going through the paperwork these words came out of her mouth "In order to go to school, he's required to have all of these except Hep A". I piped up from the corner "Actually, that's not true, in the state of Colorado, the law says that all the school needs is a signed philosophical exemption for whichever she chooses not to do"
I got a really dirty look. And then she said "well, yes, i guess they are only required if you don't have an exemption"
When it was all said and done, I did leave the doctor with a copy of this document that the VaxXed legal team has created. I didn't ask her to sign it because she didn't threaten to fire this family for choosing to delay / space out / pick and choose shots. But I left it with her as something to think about. She made the statement that she personally believes in vaccines and has vaccinated her children and I could not help but flash back to this moment at A1 during the Q and A where Del made his statement about how belief in something makes it a religion, not a science.
A few weeks ago I mentioned that our favorite OT
student from last summer, Jonny, had decided to take a job back in
Colorado and would be coming out once he finished his OT national
certification process. He came back last week. While it will be a few
weeks before he’s official and working with Dominic, we had him over for
dinner last Thursday to catch up and visit.
Dominic RAN out the door to greet him, he was that excited.
was blown away. Remember, he left last fall, in September, so we’ve had
8 months of AMAZING progress since then. Dominic was initiating play
with the dogs (which Jonny’d never seen) and talking up a storm. I
showed Jonny some of the OT related exercises we’ve done regularly. The
one that blew his mind is the one where I turn the BOSU upside down,
make Dominic balance on the teetering top, on one foot and do a cross
body hand slapping kind of exercise. Apparently we were way further
along with some of the things Jonny wants to do with Dominic than he
The other moment
that absolutely knocked Jonny’s socks off was when Dominic went to his
room, got a lego kit that I brought home from Autism One for him. (one
that’s for ages 6-12, so its age appropriate), told us “Want to open
it”, then proceeded to sit down at the table and complete the lego kit
while following its pictorial directions. He needed help a couple of
times, but HE DID IT HIMSELF. The level of executive functioning,
self-initiation, and FOCUS on an activity astonished Jonny. We
concurred that I’m probably going to go broke buying lego kits. I’m
okay with that.
once he’s official and all, we have high hopes for Jonny and Dominic
this summer. Jonny’s comment was that you could see the speech and
cognition and its like there’s just a wall between us and them right
now. That wall is the brain injury that we are finally ready to
address. And you know what my feelings about walls are – we go around
them, we go over them, or we go through them. So here we go!
A few days ago, I shared with you that one of the action items coming out of Autism One for me was to video our story. Here it is. You may share this far and wide. And please, please, please - tell your own story on video. The time has come, we are United For VaxXed and we stand together.
Dominic is always pretty tired the first week of summer camp. Its because they are ACTIVE all day, as opposed to sitting and working like at school. So we always know that the first week is going to be rough for after-camp therapies because he's just cooked.
On Wednesday, he had speech therapy after camp. He was not loving it. I also was in the room because I was doing my own footbath and thats where the footbath chair is. He does better without me in the room because he's forever looking at me to gauge my reaction to what he's doing as opposed to focusing on what he's supposed to do.
Miss Sarah has a cool 2 part system that works very well in motivating Dominic to stay on task and to follow directions. The first part is the visual schedule - 3 activities and a reward. They cross each activity off as it completes, then he gets a 3 minute reward that usually he chooses to watch Finding Nemo on her laptop. The second piece is a laminated paper with 10 circles on it. If he doesn't follow direction, is non compliants, etc, he gets a sad face. 10 sad faces and he doesn't get his reward.
Wednesday he got the most sad faces ever - 5. The hysterical part is that every time Sarah's back was turned, Dominic licked his finger and erased sad faces. The other hilarious thing is he turned off the timer that was limiting his time with Nemo. The higher level executive function (and downright mischievousness) that shows gives me so much hope.
Here's a quick video from what was not a great speech session. And Look how good it is.
So we have just finished week 1 of Summer camp, and with all the stuff I needed to post last week about Autism One, activism, the Grandparents book, etc - I didn't do my annual post of the letter I send in with Dominic.
This years has changed a bit... he's tying his own shoes so is entirely independent in dressing now.
He's much more verbal. He's much more social.
Couple of Highlights from week 1
~on day 2, the counselor told me that he did his own art project, entirely independently. (this is huge), and that he created a game where he runs up and down the hill and the other kids yell "ready, set, go" and give him high fives. The whole reason we are doing Y camp is for social interaction.
~ on day 4, they told me that he made friends with a younger child and they "read" together, looking at pictures and talking about them. He also made his art project, which is not a preferred activity
So here's the letter that I sent in....
Things that The Y Camp counselors
need to know about Dominic.
~Dominic has an Autism diagnosis, and his
primary area of trouble is speech. He is verbal and is starting to become
conversational. He CAN speak and you
SHOULD encourage him to use his words to ask for things.This may mean you have to slow down and
perhaps ask a question twice before he will answer, but he is able to give you
a yes/no, answer his name, say "Good Morning", etc.He may need prompting to say that he is 11
years old and will be going to GalileoMiddle school.
He has a
deep love of animals and is fascinated by all things sciencey.He also loves heavy gross motor play
(climbing wall, jumping, swimming) and will catch on quickly to games.We expect his participation in group activities
this year.If questions are being asked (eg, in
a group introduction time) – he’ll need some prompting to say things.For gross motor stuff (structured outside
play), he’ll catch on quick, but will need some patience.
is allergic to Gluten, Dairy, Soy, and artificial colors.You are NOT to allow him to eat anything that
we did not send from home. In his lunch box, you’ll find snacks (2) and lunch.
It is iced and will be fine without refrigeration, and does not need to be
heated up.He can drink water, please
do not give him juice / milk / soda / sports drinks.If you plan to do something like ice cream
with the group, please tell us the day before and we will send in an allergy
free equivalent so that he can participate. we are happy to send in additional non
perishable snacks, just grab one of us and let us know.
summer there were a few times that he went inside the lobby and sat down, with
counselors not noticing.This is
unacceptable because we really want you all making sure he is included in the
activities.He does not elope in the
sense of running away / hiding, but just in case we are putting a GPS tracker on
him. It will be in his pocket when we get it sorted out.
Swimming:Dominic loves the water and
will probably BEG to go swimming as soon as he realizes it’s a regular part of
the program.Being that water is very
calming for him, and he does not like to get out.He has some rudimentary water ability and we
would love to have him actually learn to swim this summer so he can hang out in
the deep end.
~Dominic has absolutely blossomed the past
year cognitively and socially so we expect that he will have a fantastic
summer.Should you have ANY questions or
concerns about how to best interact with him and keep him safe, please ask
either Mom or Dad at pick up or drop off.
private speech and occupational therapy schedule we will be picking up Dominic
Early on Thursday each week. On Thursday, we will pick him up at 4pm.Please ensure that if you plan to be gone later than this time on a
field trip that you tell us at least 2 days before so we can cancel his private
I'm still reflecting back on my weekend at Autism one, and there's one phrase that we kept saying to each other. Generally through tears - it was one of the most emotionally cathartic weekends of my life:
By it, we mean the exposure of the fraud at the CDC, the realization by many parents that vaccines are not what they think they are, the truth that in some children, yes, vaccines do cause regressive, isolated autism.
The documentary VaxXed is taking the world by storm. It is being translated into multiple other languages right now. Ty Bollinger (the guy who did the Truth about Cancer series) was there filming The Truth about Vaccines. A French film crew was there filming. Everyone is now paying attention!!!! Its changing!!! I am a part of a social movement that is going to change the world and experiencing it is absolutely mind blowing and humbling at the same time.
We have reached the tipping point we've been trying to get to and now the media is starting to take us seriously.
Everything is snowballing rapidly. VaxXed is selling out across the country - please go see it. If money is an issue, I will buy your ticket, just contact me via the blog comments. I want the WORLD to know what happened. That I am Not Crazy. I watched Dominic regress after a toxic insult to his system.
I also want you all to question anything that a doctor wants to inject into your body - get the package insert, read the label and don't do it if its full of aluminum, formaldehyde and aborted fetal cells. Don't do it. Doesn't matter if its a flu or pneumonia shot your grandmothers doc wants her to get or the vitamin K injection at birth. Its toxic. End of story. We were designed for our immune systems to WORK, and injecting something past the immune system is incredibly dangerous.
Del Bigtree, producer from the Doctors and now producer of VaxXed is an amazing human being. When someone who is not personally affected by vaccine injury joins our charge, and takes the torch to lead it - its an incredible thing. He's not burnt out and exhausted from the day to day grind of living with autism. He's got energy.
This is the Moment Where he apologized to us. I am personally in the row of sobbing TMR's, in full on ugly-cry because THEY KNEW. They didn't listen to us, they called us crazy, but THEY KNEW that vaccines cause autism. We finally have validation and support. We have known for years, but now we know that THEY know and we know that this story will not go away. They cannot bury a movement and they cannot shut us up.
Del promised us that if the CDC re-releases the data from the fraudulent study and tries to write off the racial connection as socio-economic that He. Will. Bury. Them. And I believe him. (I totally chased him down in the hotel lobby for this photo)
Everywhere I go, I see affected children. I see toe walkers, I see rheumy red cheeks, I see 4 year olds in diapers not speaking, I see parents doing the wrist hold while crossing streets, I see unfocused eyes, and flapping, and stimming. I see the classic hand curl that our kids have from the damage to their nervous system. Therefore everywhere I go, I share our story.
I have a couple of action Items from the conference, and I'm inviting all of you to take part.
First - TELL your story. Video it. I'll be doing this within the week. Then share it. The VaxXed team will be amending their webpage for our stories soon. Put it there, put it on facebook - SHARE IT. We will not be silenced, and there is so much power in sharing our stories.
Second - Email William Thompson and thank him for coming forward with the data. After the screening of Vaxxed at Autism One, an audience member asked if it was true that CDC whistleblower William Thompson
is going to recant on any of his statements about CDC fraud. Brian
Hooker, the scientist to whom Thompson confessed, answered that Thompson
is collaborating on a paper he's planning to publish. He stated that
Thompson will supposedly say that the data showing a higher risk
of autism for African American boy babies is, on reanalysis, not a
result of vaccination, but an artifact of socioeconomic conditions. Hooker went on to say that he believes Thompson is being "handled" and
that this is yet another instance of the CDC massaging data to get a
result they want. He then called upon the audience to emailWilliam Thompson
and thank him for his outing the CDC, but implore him not to publish
this paper, which will only put children in harm's way. He gave out
Thompson's address, which is in the public domain, as email@example.com. Del Bigtree then emphasized that Thompson did not renege on the CDC
fraud, including the falsification and destruction of data and its
subsequent cover-up, nor his statement that the CDC and HHS are not
qualified to make vaccine policy.
Third - contact your congressperson. Request they subpoena William Thompson as soon as possible. Ask that they read the data that Congressman Posey has.
Finally - when you see those kids who are melting down, those moms who are on their last nerve, the child who is toe walking, with red cheeks and lining toys up - you TELL THEM them about The Thinking Moms Revolution, tell them about Generation Rescue and tell them about TACA. That we can help. That its not normal and they need intervention. Don't bite your tongue, that mama may not know there are resources for her, she may actually have believed the pediatrician who made her think her child is just developing slower or she didn't read to him enough.
It’s never a good sign when you are trying to read a
book to write a review on it and you cannot see through the tears.
Every time I pick up one of the Thinking Moms Revolution family of
books, I am moved beyond belief. There is power in sharing our stories
with each other.
Grandparents, it comes as a complete shock to realize the difference in
the vaccine schedule from when their kids were babies to now. I know I
had 5 vaccines, and my parents had even fewer. Because you don’t see in
mainstream media the changes that have come about in the vaccine
schedule, aside from the constant barrage of fear based advertising,
most grandparents assume that the vaccine program has stayed similar.
After all, in 30ish years, the human immune system shouldn’t have
changed that much. Evolution takes time. The realization for a
generation of people who have been so conditioned to worship the white
coat - that the white coat is not the be all end all – can create
some major cognitive dissonance.
19 Grandparents who submitted stories to this collection have all
jumped in to help their children heal their grandchildren from this
thing called Autism. They’ve had to recalibrate their concepts of what a
healthy child looks like and of what appropriate parenting looks like.
They’ve moved in with their kids, they’ve emptied their retirements,
they’ve been supportive beyond belief. Their stories about their
grandchildren’s journey with autism, told through the lens of the
grandparent provide hope. Hope that there can be a multigenerational
community taking the role of the proverbial village. Hope that cooler
heads – who remember that measles is not a death sentence (my own mother
had it every year of school and she’s still around at age 70) can ask
the common sense questions about why as a species our immune systems are
suddenly so weak that we need this artificial immunity. Hope that our
own families will agree to support our wacky research and treatments.
when it all comes down to it, the biggest gift any grandparent can give
their child who has just been given a diagnosis of autism for their
child is Hope and Love. And the occasional date night.
To purchase the book, Revolutionary Grandparents, please click here.
So while I was at Autism one last week, I got a text from Daddy that said for OT, Miss Ashley laidout the lego pieces and the directions and Dominic did it with NO help.
Do you realize the cognitive function we are seeing????
At the zoo trip we went to yesterday, we were practicing our words as we always do and Dominic out of the blue took my finger and directed it to words on the exhibit sign wanting me to read them to him.
This was my fourth trip to autism one in Chicago. It was my first working for an exhibitor which made it a very different show - no staying out late because work started at 7:30am. It was amazing to see my autism mama sisters - we only get usually once or twice a year to Visit. It's also awesome to make new friends. I wanted to share a couple of stories mostly for my own memory.
The first morning we were there, my roommate and I were eating breakfast at the hotel cafe, talking about the things we always talk about - methylation, detox, die off, poop, etc. the woman sitting with her back to us in the booth beside us came over and told us that we had her in tears - it was her first autism conference and she was from abroad, and she was weeping because she realized she found her people. Of course we had her join us and we visited. She is one of us. That was the beginning of the waterworks for me
I talked to countless families as I washed their feet over the course of the 5 day conference. Brand new ones with the deer in the headlights look all the way to decades long veterans. I told our story until I lost my voice. I made a huge number of new friends. We renamed the conference to our annual family reunion. I met the leading researcher in the world speaking about vaccine danger, Dr Tetyana Obukhanych and totally fangirled.
One night the Team TMR gals who were around went to dinner and we discovered that our waitress had a 3 year old who was still not talking or potty trained. Her docs told her it was because they are a bilingual home and she didn't read to him enough. We dropped a real big truth bomb on her. That is not normal.
One mom with 2 older boys came to do a footbath. Her teenagers are entirely nonverbal. We cried together at the footbath booth.
We met a mother whose daughter died from the hpv vaccine
I met and washed the feet of Maryanne Godboldo - a hero to many of us. She is a tiny little lady who shoved a refrigerator against her door because the police had come with a swat team and a tank to take her 11 year daughter away from her because she declined to medicate her with medication that was making her sick. TMR gave Maryanne the first annual warrior mom award. And I held her hands and told her we are her people, and we will help her. Her now 18 year old daughter is very sick from the many vaccines and medications the state gave her while she was out of her mothers custody. We talked about how now we know many of the things that were just quirky in her nieces and nephews were actually vaccine injuries.
I purposely waited to see the movie VaxXed until Autism One because I knew I would be an emotional mess. I was very right - it was one of the most cathartic nights of my life and I want everyone reading this to find a way to watch it. The crowd heckled, cheered and sobbed our
Way through the movie.
The Most powerful moment of VaxXed for me was right after, at the start of the q and a, when Del Bigtree had everyone stand who had a family member injured by vaccines (99% of a standing room Only venue that had at least 800 chairs stood) and apologized to us on behalf of the media covering medical issues. Every single person in range Of me, including myself, immediately burst into tears. This was after sobbing my way through the movie holding the hands of my sisters.
Some miscellaneous photos of the TMR ladies in Chicago...